[Editorial] Worries of a writer

As a soon to be nineteen-year-old writer (7th of March for those who are interested), right now my future terrifies me. I am a university student studying English and Creative writing, and to be honest I hate my course. Who would have thought a writer would hate an English course!! “It’s perfectly suited for you”. Hmm.. Yes, although that is true, but something in my gut is telling me not to continue the course and be a further £20,000 in debt after. Its inexplainable….

Perhaps one of the reasons may be the ongoing pandemic. Yes, it’s not ideal in the slightest. The Open University in the U.K charges around £6,000 per year for online learning, which is what everyone is currently doing for £9,000. But having a degree is what everyone should do right? It’s what everyone needs to succeed in life and become successful.

To an extent, yes that is true. Many fields of work are subject-specific and requires a degree to show experience and expert knowledge.

But why writing?

I have been writing since the age of five. Fourteen years. That’s almost five university degree’s worth of time. Yet a course that judges the subjectivness of my talent defines who I am as a writer. But as a writer, I’m kind of left in the fog… Medical students become doctors, Mathemiticians become Maths teachers. English students?… What do we do? I don’t want to work a 9-5 office job until I retire and die.

Who does?

We all want to become authors. We all want to be scriptwriter’s for Netflix. But in this industry, it’s always who you know, not what you know. I could come out with a writer’s degree and still be working at McDonald’s until who knows when…

Not fullfilling my dream of becoming a writer is what scares me the most. It’s probably what scares every writer the most…

The feeling of faliure…

15 Comments Add yours

  1. The best hint I can give you: if you want to be a wtiter, than write. Don’t worry too much, just write. I know a lot of people, saying “I would be a writer, if…”, but if you ask them to show you something, they answer, they just had ideas, but no time to write them down. They are no writers. If you want to be a writer, than write! I wish you success!

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    1. moonchildsky says:

      This is really good advice, thank you! I totally agree! I do a lot of writing actually and currently working on two projects.

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      1. Wish you all the best for it!

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  2. nedhamson says:

    Reblogged this on Ned Hamson's Second Line View of the News and commented:
    You are already a writer, perhaps not yet published but you are a writer. You can select your genre, construct a list of potential publishers and begin submitting to them one at a time – give them two weeks to respond and then move to the next. Your work may not be accepted the first time around because it is not what the editor needs at that moment. So when his/her time comes up again resubmit and the timing might be right. You write because you have to; so don’t stop – just get organized in submitting your work.

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    1. moonchildsky says:

      Thank you so much for your advice. I love writing (I literally write everyday), but the publishing step is very daunting – this is the part that scares me the most really. But many big authors got their best works rejected before they were published of course. So there’s still hope 🙂

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  3. merzkehd says:

    As someone also exhausted by the college/university, system, I sympathize with where you’re head is at. It’s difficult to stay motivated when it seems as though the courses/classes/major don’t seem to lead exactly to where you want to go. It’s always important to note that it’s OK to not have everything figured out yet. Society places a lot of pressure on youth to understand their objective/purpose as early as high school, but that simply isn’t possible across all individuals. Take things at your own pace and find our what path you want to take. And, as Coffee said, just keep writing.

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    1. moonchildsky says:

      Oh no for sure. University is extremely exhausting. I came here to showcase my writing and improve but instead, I’m being told exactly HOW to write. They’re giving me a structure that is totally different from how I write and seem to do the exact same to everyone else. There is a huge stigma to not go to University or for dropping out, and I guess this stigma was the reason why I went in the first place – not because I wanted to :/

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  4. Marjorie says:

    I could see myself whilst I was reading your post. I’m nearly 33 years old but sti frustrated with my career. I studied law because my mum wanted it, did a specialization in law and then I tried to study what I really wanted which is HR (as second option study to have a B.A in English), but life changed my plans after graduation. I met my partner and came to his country. Ended up working in accounts (which I hate) but I want to go back to what I like. I love languages and I want to try again and study English. I always feel that I am old to start for a third time and always thinking about people will say about me. But I am encouraged to try and I have the support of my partner and our families. So don’t give up, follow your heart. ❤️🌼

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    1. moonchildsky says:

      Totally understand!

      To be honest, it doesn’t matter what age you are or where you are in your life, you can follow your dreams if you really try! You’re definitely not too old to go back to university and do what you really really want to do! You can try doing it part-time so you can juggle work and education. Additionally, as I explained, you don’t really need a degree in English to be a writer, many well-known writers haven’t got a university degree. I believe experience trumps knowledge. Being able to write is a gift, it can’t really be learned. Fortunately, you have a job and are able to provide a steady income, but writing can be something you do on the side, almost like a second job!

      But definitely never let go of that dream and keep writing 🙂 !!!

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  5. RLHarper says:

    Fear can get you off your back, but desire is what gets you to finish the work. Don’t let fear be what drives you. Tell fear to take a backseat and let desire sit in the front next to you. Here’s some truth: you write, therefore you’re a writer. Everything else is just a distraction.

    PS- University courses are going to help you learn and develop new skills. It’s not meant for you to get a job. I’m speaking from experience.

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    1. moonchildsky says:

      These are some really motivating words, thank you 🙂

      It’s so unfortunate that throughout high school, we have been so pushed towards the idea that you’ll only get a job if you go to University. I wish I was more of a free thinker and took my own path, as to be honest everything I’ve learned in my creative writing modules, I’ve known already XD

      Thanks for the comment!!! ❤

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  6. MIRE says:

    I hear you. I went to university for 2 years out of high school, then quit because I still didn’t know what to major in. I have always had a lot of interests, but nothing I was certain I wanted to pursue (or was willing to put all my eggs into, if you pardon the partial metaphor). So I pursued other things, including disappointing jobs for 8 years trying to figure it out. I am now back in college to get a graphic design certificate. Is that what I want to do with my life? I still don’t know. But it might be better than any of my previous jobs. It’s hard, though, isn’t it, when it feels like we’re supposed to have it all figured out from the get go? It’s hard when they say “you want to write, so study English and literature.” Why? Don’t do it if you don’t like it, I say. Granted, my advice doesn’t count for much since I’m still wandering myself, but we only have one life. I’m certain if you stick with the program you will learn invaluable things and have important, defining experiences, so it won’t be a waste. But it can feel like it. And if there’s something else you’d rather do in the meantime, do it. You can always go back to school. Who says you have to live the “traditional” life?

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    1. moonchildsky says:

      You’re totally right, a lot of people like you and I don’t fit into this societial mold. We’re not doctors, teachers or politicians, we’re writers. But it’s so unfortunate that we don’t have the same resources and support as those who want to go down the path of more linear and mainstream career paths. We have to work that little bit harder to get our name out there or to land a job we actually want.

      Although University does have it’s perks, why is there such a hype for one slip of paper that says we hold value and intelligence?

      I really wish you the best in whatever you do MIRE and hope your path becomes less foggy, hopefully mine will too aha!

      Thanks for commenting!!!

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  7. MIRE says:

    Absolutely! If it depends on me and my effort and connections to get my work published, it will never, ever happen. Maybe if I die and someone happens to discover my work… but what good does that do me? Some people are great at promoting themselves and tirelessly submitting, revising, and submitting some more, but what about the shy and overwhelmed? Alas, life is not fair. But we can keep dreaming and writing. If you know Korean (I’m guessing you might based on one of my poems you liked), 화이팅!! May we live to see a happier world.

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    1. moonchildsky says:

      Aha I know a little. But yes I agree, It’s so annoying how difficult it is to break into the writing industry as beginner writers 😦 화이팅 친구!!!!

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